Juz a disappointment

Felt so disappointed yesterday :( when received the results online. But I expected all along. I cannot blame anyone but blame myself coz the expectation of them is high and there are many talented ppl ard me.

Luckily, I noe my chances are not so high luckily my disappointment is not so much. Now waiting for another result of the news by letter for more than one week.

My two granddad and grandfather in heaven, do u guys heard my prayer and wishes?

hopefully so.

Praying and Praying.

Changing my temper

I should change my temper...sumtimes being calm, cool, "ignored", relaxed---> these 4 feelings are good for you when a person is very fed up and angry. In life, I have met 2 persons who are very good and have a nice temper in terms of they will not get "hot", able to control easily. Once a person told me in my NS said tat, " Every problem has its own solution."

I feel tat it is quite true. No matter how frutrasted u are, u still have to solve it. By leaving it alone, the problem will not settle by itself. Haizz...i thought already change my character, attitude and temper but not all. Looks like i still have to learn alot from my officer, LTA Ng and Angies Sim (My Ex-popluar Assist manager).

Muz change...muz change.

Praying for my dreams come true

A brand new mth starting already for 4 days, my dear mum has cooked alot of sumptuous and nice dinner tonite and has juz finish eaten my dinner together as a family. The feeling is like great since I no need to go to work and Dad is off today. Ever since, I started working and have rotating shift, I rarely have time to gather as a family to have dinner. Even though I work in the morning shift and still come back for dinner with them, but that feeling is not as great as now.

I wonder how come the letter still havent come to my house yet. Been waiting n waiting...argh! Dun like the feeling of this. Heard from my frend tat his frend has received the letter. But not both of us. Muz due to some reasons behind it. Hopefully, we can get it ASAP.

I dunno why I can still tahan working in this company for one mth, motive:

1. Waiting for the letter if successful, stay on. If not, meanwhile hand on to this job and find another job regarding to my course, persue my dreams.
2. Trying to save $$$ as much as possible if can to go on tour to Aust to visit my frends who is currently studying over there.

Praying n Praying...